100th Episode! 3 Hours of calm relax music

You know this is a good time to write something about me (sounds selfish). Here are several parts of my thoughts while episodes were being posted here. You will understand why I am doing this. Do not read this if you are in a good mood or susceptible. 08.02 Today I realized that I won't be living in a good country somewhere in Europe or America. This is terrible to realize that I have to suffer in a third-world country (67th by the quality of living) my entire life because I am stupid and useless piece of **** with mental problems. Should I seek help? Yeah, spend 10% of salary for one visit this is exactly what I need. Hate being. And this is 100% I will give up. Nothing matters. Nothing is important. Want to cry. Want to stop writing because it is difficult to use fingers (yeah). You didn't save me. Hate you.e wwww This is not the last episode. I'd like to give up but now I can't afford it. Maybe one day this podcast will bring to me even one dollar, but this day hasn't come by now. Will I be alive when this day comes? I do not know. I doubt. And this is not about money (not at all). The last thing a person with mental problems needs is money. Anyway, no one will read this. You are only numbers. Nothing more In the description of all episodes, I write about charity. Nobody wrote. that he/she did it. On the other side "Why are there have to say you, bastard?" Make sense. 09.02 Hey, I was wrong about the previous paragraph. This is awesome. Should I publish this podcast with such a dark and messy description? I don't think so, but here we are. I am sorry. I didn't mean to be rude (or did it yesterday?). Everything is fine. You don't need to bother about anything. Love you. 11.02 I can't this understand, but I strongly want to apologize to you. I am sorry. I don't really know for what.