The Aftermath of Suicide Pursuit - Aliza Bulow (PART 2)

We continue the second part of our episode with Aliza Bulow, whose son Dani, died by suicide. Due to his diagnosed extreme depression and bipolar, Dani's constant mantra since the age of 5 was that he did not want to live or be alive. As a loving parent walking on tiptoes, Aliza was constantly petrified of the day Dani would take his own life. She shares with us the intimate thoughts only a mother could, with extreme respect, love and fear of her son's wishes and the truth of how he didn't want to kill himself, he just didn't want to be alive. Aliza discusses her inner torment and constant worry as well as the sad feelings of relief and unintentional strange comfort in the wake of his death,  that the worries of hearing a bump in the night are no longer a reason to leap out of bed and fully aware that she "didn't give him permission but he got his wish". She came to realize that he died of his illness, planning out his death and respectfully asking his mother her preferred method, as he respected her wishes.  This powerful episode opens the discussion of how not to be afraid to engage in hyper sensitive material. How to discuss suicide without giving permission but understanding the illness. It takes greatness and a healthy frame of mind to recognize that this was not her fault , she did nothing wrong, she was not a bad mother, they were simply nothing that she could do. We also learn how parents can grow closer together despite having faced such a tragedy, and not also lose their marriage. -- Today's episode of Hope to Recharge is sponsored by https://Betterhelp.com/hopetorecharge.  Betterhelp.com is the world’s leading provider of online therapy. Their mission is to make professional counseling accessible, affordable, and convenient, so anyone who struggles with life’s challenges can get help anytime, anywhere. Head to https://Betterhelp.com/hopetorecharge for 10% off your first month of services. IMPORTANT: Be sure to click this link in order to get the 10% off code -- Interested in joining our monthly Mastermind?  Find out more info here! www.hopetorecharge.com/Mastermind -- Topics Discussed: Living with a son with suicidal thoughts How to engage in conversations about suicide -- Suicide Hotlines: USA: 1-800-273-8255 USA Crisis Text: 741-741 Canada: 1-833-456-4566 United Kingdom: 116-123 Australia: 13-11-14 International Suicide Hotlines: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_suicide_crisis_lines -- Connect with us! Website: https://hopetorecharge.com/ Private Facebook Group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/2079694042156503/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/matanajacobs/ -- WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST ______________________ Subscribe via iTunes and leave a review.  It costs nothing. https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/hope-to-recharge/id1464788845 ————————————————————————— Spread the word via social media.   It costs nothing. Our website is https://hopetorecharge.com/ our FB is https://www.facebook.com/groups/2079694042156503/ and our Instagram is https://www.instagram.com/matanajacobs/ -------------------------------------------------------- Subscribe to us on: iTunes: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/hope-to-recharge/id1464788845 Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/00AIhRZOxKNOvenz32gGeK Stitcher: https://www.stitcher.com/podcast/heather-parady-2/hope-to-recharge Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC_DkYMcco7pSrkKk6wU5p7w Google: https://play.google.com/music/listen?u=0#/ps/Izxlwulashxr3n6trjrxpjpgwce Support this podcast at — https://redcircle.com/hope-to-recharge/donations Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brands Privacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy