E4 Trauma Method™ | The Trauma Healing Journey [Trauma Series]

Grab your FREE gifts and Universal Law Oracle Cards: https://www.spiritualawakeningcards.com/oracle-cards-order-now Transcription: (00:01): This is first live from Los Angeles. Welcome to the Dr. Aaron show. We're all about manifestation transformation and breakthroughs. It's time to claim your birthright of prosperity, vitality and love. So grab your tea coffee, because together we're awakening the world. May you live your truth? (00:19): Are you somebody that's ready to transform your trauma and transform your life? Well, then this podcast is for you. Are you ready to no longer be reactive in your relationships and become the cause of your life? Are you ready to no longer feel overwhelmed and be calm with total clarity? Are you ready to no longer start and stop projects and completely not know where you're going in life. Then this podcast is for you. If you're ready to end the dysfunction or any codependency, or maybe even addiction. This podcast is for you. We're in a series of trauma podcast, knowing the truth that the key and the secret to clearing the soul is releasing neutralizing and claiming your truth of your life through trauma work in particular E four trauma method. So welcome to Dr. Aaron podcast. We come together to know the truth, live on spiritual principle and align with universal law. We truly believe that when somebody awakens save a gift and message to bring to the world and together we're awakening the world, we come together in community in new thought global and society, truly with the intention of bringing truth to the world, the shift, the tribe, the movement, let's do this thing guys. So today I wanna talk about the trauma healing journey, the trauma healing journey. (01:43): So I grew up in the Hills of Santa Barbara in somewhat of a pseudo hippie commun. My parents got divorced at when I was the age of two, and my mother really had no core principles or any guidance in her life. She was quite lost. My father went off to go find himself and ended up finding another family going off. And we weren't invited to go to the wedding. We grew up, it was a beautiful place. It was up in the Hills of Santa Barbara. And in one aspect, it was lovely. I had amazing friends. We'd go out and play barefoot in the street and go off, run off into mother nature. There was no computers or cell phones in the house at that point in time, but there was a lot of emotions in the house. My mother was a bit of a roller coaster. (02:33): She was very codependent. She'd be in and outta relationship up and down high, like as if she was on a drug, when she'd first get into a relationship and then soon enough it would spiral down again and she'd be, you know, sad, they'd break up and then there'd be a depression. And then she'd begin to get normalized again. And then the next relationship would come in. It was in and out, up and down all around the parents in the community were quite dysfunctional. A lot of them were alcoholic. A lot of them did drugs. A lot of them slept with one another. In fact, there was, it was an interesting childhood because we lived next to Jane Fonda's ranch. Majority of the people over in the community that I lived in did not have much money at all. It was a community called painted cave because there was an actual cave down the street where the Indians, the Chumash Indians resided at one, one point in time. (03:29): And then next to the other, you know, street down was Jane Fondas rant where, you know, Michael Jackson and, um, all kinds of famous celebrities, Joe COER actually lived on the property. And so we had this very paradoxical, um, living my childhood was really a fascinating childhood. And I had so many big traumas and little traumas over the course of my life. I remember my father came to visit us after he had left for some time. And I remember when he left, I was so upset. I would began to get hysterical watching as whose car drove off. And I remember in that moment telling myself that love abandons, something's wrong with me? I'm not good enough. And so, as I began to go into school and life, I began to question everything. They say that the veil comes over the child's eyes and over the consciousness, the moment that the child believes that they are divided, that they're not in their oneness with the universe and with the mother and father and everything that they believe a limited belief, a limited identity. (04:44): So as I began to enter life, none of it ever made sense. My mother said the first day I came home from school, I asked how old do you need to be quit to quit school? She rolled her eyes. I never understood why we would wanna learn the things that were teaching us in school. She said the first day I went into taking ice skating lessons that I came home and I said, I don't wanna do it because I can't just skate. They tell me what to do when to do it. And I never understood the control and trying to fit into the box of other people. And so I began to go into traditional elementary school, which never made sense to me at all. My mom said she went to the parent teacher conference and the teacher said, Erin's really smart. She just doesn't apply herself. (05:38): When we do math, she wants to do English. When we're doing English, she wants to do something else. And so the point is, is that I never understood life in itself. As I grew up, things got more dysfunctional as we began to go, even into junior high, my mom was at the bar and I began to go hang out on the street, trying drugs, having sex with boys and trying to find myself at the age of 15, I was, uh, date raped. And it sent me into a spiral of, of, uh, being bulimic from the time I was 17 to 20. And I remember that moment, the moment that I was in that bed with that boy pushing him off screaming. No. And then there was a moment where I went numb, completely checked outta my body and decided that life is cruel. (06:34): I don't wanna live and nothing matters. And so in understanding how traumas work, big traumas and little traumas, it's in that moment, that moment of a high, high, high state of a negative state and that high frequency, that high vibration, that high state, where we decide something, a limited belief, a limited identity, a command that impinges upon the neurological system that tells the soldiers of the subconscious mind to act out a lie, a limited belief. And in that moment, I decided I was unlovable. Something's wrong with me and I'm not enough. And so in these big traumas, as it went on, I began to get bulimic. And then I thought I could solve all my problems if I just got married. So I married somebody that I didn't even know. And quite frankly, was not in love with and vice versa at the age of 21. (07:47): And as most of you guys know I was pregnant and I ended up having a full term stillborn at the age of 22, I had held it all together enough to get into nursing school. And I was pregnant in a marriage that I was miserable. And I was almost, I think I was three weeks out from giving birth to being full term. And, um, I, my baby stopped moving inside of my belly. And I'd read in the book what to expect when you're expecting that if your baby stops moving inside of you, you should go get it shut down. So I went down to the doctor's hos, uh, office at like 5:00 PM and he was already gone and the nurse let me in and I told her what was going on. So she went in right away and uh, said, come on back. We'll do a little ultrasound. (08:39): And when she put the lube on my belly to do the ultrasound, cuz you kind of put the lube on and then you looked the monitor right away. We saw that there was no heartbeat. And she looked at me and I looked at her and she said, let me call the doctor. And so I met the doctor over at the regular hospital, along with my husband and he did a real ultrasound. He looked at me, he said, sweetheart, I'm so sorry that your babies died inside of you. You can go home and you can go into natural labor or we can induce you and you can, um, go into the hospital and give birth to your baby now. And I thought what my baby has died inside of me. And now I've gotta go into full term labor. I was blown away. I think I was so numb. (09:26): I had no idea what was going on six hours later. I held my dead baby in my arms. And I just remember that moment. I remember looking up at my husband that I had no idea who he was looking down at my baby and realizing he was gone, but his body was still here. And I remember in that moment deciding, deciding that something's gotta change. I went home that evening without my baby, completely numb. And I woke up in the next, the next morning and I said, I I've gotta go to the mortician's house to we. I had to pick out the urn and do some paperwork. And my husband said, I'm not going. So I got my car. That was probably like a $2,000 beat up car. And I drove down to the mortician's house and I brought this bag of clothes because I'd had a bag of clothes that I was going to take to the hospital. (10:37): You know, thinking that I'd have a normal birth and be able to, you know, take pictures. And there was a bunch of cute little clothes. And I said, I just didn't get the right pictures because they want, they had us bur um, take pictures of the dead baby of my dead baby, bathe their dead baby and go home without the dead baby the day before. And the mortician said, sweetheart, I'm so sorry. Let me get you a room ready. And you can take as much time. You need to grieve your Bon. Your baby's been in formal to hide for 24 hours. So I don't know if you're gonna wanna take pictures. So I got the room all settled up and I went down to this cold, dark mortician room with red drapes on the wall. And he closed the door behind me and said, take as much time as you need. (11:21): And in that moment, time stopped. I dropped the bag of clothes on the ground and I walked towards this hospital bed that was in the middle of this big room with a body on it. And I walked up to the hospital bed with my baby's body on it. And I realized that he was gone, but his, his body was here. I sat in that room and I cried and I cried. I felt that huge lump in my throat. And I felt as alone as anyone could ever feel in their life. And in that moment, I decided that I'm gonna figure out what we're doing and our spiritual nature. I realized in that moment that I'm a spiritual being. (12:16): And so in our life, we have big traumas and little traumas. I know that being date raped or going through, you know, divorce with your parents, getting divorced or having a stillborn or being bulimic or being in all dis different dysfunctional things, brought me to this work, to this trauma work. And what's fascinating about all of it is as I began to discover the E four trauma method and began to do all my trauma work and neutralize all those big T traumas, what was burned out of that was my purpose. And calling, having a stillborn son was the greatest blessing of my life because it actually is what birth, my entire mission and purpose on this planet. It's the reason why I've touched hundred of thousands of lives being in dysfunctional relationships and codependent relationships is what birth me to the greatest self love ever. (13:26): And so I recognize that through this, that whether you have little T traumas or big T traumas, it's a fascinating thing. So as I began to work with clients and began to train people in the E four trauma method, there's some big revelations I've had around trauma. One is that children actually, the veil of life comes on the moment that they decide that they are separate, that they are not one with the cosmos. They're not one with their parents. They become somebody that identity is individualized through a traumatic incident, through an upset, even as young as generally, between two and four years old, they have som