339: Waiting game

On todays show, I talk about a situation last week where the lights when out in my apartment. It was black as pitch, especially in the hallways where the emergency lights didn’t even come on. I was about to bring my dog out and what happened next caused me to rethink where I was forgetting what I desired and instead doing things the same old way. Listen in to hear more! Transcriptiong Welcome to the Art of Living big podcast. My name is Betsy pake. I’m an author, a speaker and a trainer of NLP and hypnotherapy. And I’m focused on helping you understand and design your life with the power of the subconscious. This podcast is designed to help you think differently about what could be possible for your life. Now, let’s go live big hello fellow adventurers. Hi, welcome. Welcome to the Art of Living big. So um, alright, so today, I’m actually recording this a week ahead of time. Because I’ve been I have been better about recording days in advance, which is very exciting. But I have, I’m recording this early because as you’re listening on this Thursday, March 30, I’m getting my nose fixed. So I’ll be able to breathe. I cannot even tell you how excited I am. So without like grossing you out with details, my I have a deviated septum basically. And it’s really hard for me to get air in, and it stops me from sleeping, right. I don’t snore. I don’t know why I feel it necessary to tell you that. But it’s been like this silent thing. Like if I was snoring, I think then somebody, somebody, my husband would have said, like you’re snoring, but I’m not. So anyway, it is a great day because I am getting this fixed. And I think it’s going to be five days of I’m going to have a splint in my nose for five days. And I think that may be uncomfortable. And that’s okay. I’m excited because I know that every day I will be healing every day I’m getting closer to being my best self. And everyday I’m moving out of this space what was happening? Actually, let me tell you this, because this is this is, well, this might be kind of interesting. So what was happening was because I couldn’t breathe, right, I was very aware of most of my space that I was taking up in the world. So it was almost like I was dissociating. So instead of experiencing my body through my own body and my own seeing the world through my own eyes. I was almost like observing myself. And it made it kind of it made it pretty difficult to be present at times. And also, it led to me feeling really, like socially awkward and self conscious. And if you follow me on Instagram, I’m super curious if you’ve noticed, like over the past few months, I haven’t shown up live as much. I have had a big shift, like in the last week. And I was trying to figure out why have I had this shift where now I’m feeling better. I think it’s the knowing this is going to be fixed. So I paid for it about a week ago for this surgery, which wasn’t, you know, go to Europe or breve decided to breathe. But I think that in that it made me like kind of recoil or like pull away from life in a lot of ways. So anyway, that has been an interesting experience, because I never would have described my experience in this world as ever being socially awkward. When I was pregnant. I very much felt like that too. But you know, it’s interesting now that I say this, when I was pregnant, I could not breathe out my nose. It was like a weird thing that the doctor was like, I don’t know, maybe it’ll go away when you aren’t pregnant anymore. And it did for a large extent. But I had that same thing,